help i need somebody..

help! because i have this feeling na bukas nde kame makakapagpresent sa filipino..oh no!! tsk tsk..lagot..strict pa namn ung prof na un..feeling ko pag nde kme nakapagpresent sangkatutak na sermon ang abot..lagot

jesuits

we had our anticipated mass at up kanina..i don't know why am i so eager to celebrate it awhile ago..pero sympre..dapat naman eager lagi kse once a week lang ang simba..pero the feeling i felt was really different. i enjoyed every second of the mass..i was listening attentively to the priest..sobrang wow ang feeling.. speaking of the priest..ang galing niya.. jesuit kse e..ito..nagagalingan ako sa mga pareng hesuita..ewan ko..
they deliver their homily short but it has a deeper meaning pa after that..
effective kumbaga..

i once attended a mass at ateneo with fatima. naweirdohan ako kse we were just sitting the whole mass..tipong nde ako sanay kse dapat nakatayo...pero once i heard the priest saying his homily, wow..it was short..pero malupet..maganda..

hay..ayun lng..a little realization about jesuit priests..galing nila..


ayun nga..about the mass at up..talagang i participated..kanta ako..nafeel ko!
hay..ang saya mag misa..nabubuhos mo sa diyos ang mga hinanaing mo sa buhay..ang sarap ng ganong feeling..

i wonder..what if i am a guy...i could have gone to ateneo for my highschool..then..i could have passed my acet..then..then..nah..babae ako...

bitter?

am i bitter around new things? katulad ng new school...
i've been telling myself that change is really going to happen and that means a lot..
standing in españa almost an hour just to ride an fx going to sm fairview..
riding a jeep instead of fx..with all the pollution!
meeting new people..from different provinces..
meeting new professors..terror..strict..happy go lucky..gay..girl...straight..hay..
a new environment..seeing all of the students wearing white uniforms..and uS? don't ask

i know that i will eventually learn these new things...i'll be used to this..balang araw rin

last monday i had my pe..we just had an orientation then we went to the gym to practice the cheers for the uaap..

hay nako..there was this one cheer..ganito

animo cheer beat (opponent)
at sabi nung nagtuturo..ateneo dw ang isigaw..ayus..sapilitan kong isinigaw ang skwelanhan na iyon..ateneo...
tapos..up naman ang sinunod..
ayus din e..up to now i am still thinking what the hell am i doing in ust..nde ko naman sinasabi na ust is not a good school..pero i think i was just aiming for something that i really want..

bitter nga ako..bad..
too idealistic..

now..i want to have an uno..sino ba naman ang ayaw nun dba...and..i should be consistent on what am i doing..dapat kung ano na sinimulan ko..ganun na dapat..masipag kung masipag..

that's the way it should be para makatapak sa unibersidad na gusto ko.. :)

it is friday again

yeah...it is friday once again..yess! i'm happy! every friday i get this feeling..no more worries for the next day..hayy..sana nde na mag end ang friday..i hope everyday is friday.hay

ok..a little story of what happened to me few hours ago..
my class every tues and thurs is up to 530 only..(only..kse latest ang 6) anyway..i was so glad that i can go home early so i can study for my math quiz the next day.. so there..i was along espana with harold, my blockmate, to get an fx (sm fairview)..alalahanin..6 ng gabi ako nagaabang... ayun..harold got a jeep na so nakaalis na sya...ayus saknya..ako..nagaabang parin..untilllllll nag 7 pm na at wala pa rin akong masakyan..there i decided to take a jeep kse sa tingin ko mahihirapan na ko sumakay...ghaddddddddddddddddd....nakakapagod ang maglakad ng pabalik balik para makakuha ng fx! hayy..this is really different...changes pare..


ayun..anyway..nakakapagod lng..
lrt kaya akO?

i miss my friends! sixtreme..sobra..
pag nakakakita ako ng kabatch ko sa ust..or sa kht saang lugar..sobrang galak nung feeling..hayy..




still thinking...

paranoia

now i am being paranoid everytime it is sunday..why?


kse monday na..so sympre.. i am going to school nanaman..i have to deal with the new environment that i am having.. the new people i am meeting..matututo na rin akong maging isang loner..hehe..katulad bukas..i'm going to have my pe tom..e langhiyang tupa, nde ko alam kung san ang pe ko..so what am i supposed to do? usually, pag ganito..maghahanap ka..e ngayun..sana nga meron..hay..
pag gising ko kninang umaga, nasa utak ko kagad na.."ui..sunday na..bukas monday, bukas pe..9-11 am un..may kasama kaya ako..san ba kse ung building nayun?.." o dba..so many questions..walang nasagot kaht isa..ayus ...kamusta naman uN!

i can say na nagaadjust pa ako..of course. freshman ako.. wala naman sigurong freshman na nde nag aadjust hinde ba?

ewan..i am really thinking na i can possibly transfer school..as of now..un ang trip ko..
at eto pa..i always compare ust to some "other" schools..kaya mas nagugustuhan ko pang magiba ng eskwelahan kse kinokompera ko..tama ba naman uN!!

tas..sobrang naiinggit ako sa ibang tao..by looking at the pictures palang..gahd! inggit na ko..lalo na ung sa napakagandang orientation na binigay ng school na un! aba naman! kamusta naman un..hay..too much comparison na ata toh..e ganun e..can't help but compare them...sad pare..

well..i think i just have to make the most out of my college life..magiging maganda rin ito..mag transfer man o hindi..hayy!!!

am i bitter or not? i think i should be more optimistic rather than to neglect the things that come along my way...

thomasian

june 14, 2006, that was my first day of school..it was my first day being a thomasiaN..yeah.
how was it?!
ok..
i was really scared..literal..as in kabado..super paranoid.. questions kept popping in my head..
if i can make friends easily..magiging madaldal ba ko? how will i commute? san ba ko bababa? magiging loner ba ko pagdating ko dun? ano na ba? i was really paranoid..

so there... my sister dropped me in philcoa to take an fx.. first time. jackpot! i got one! yes!
ito pa..i was time conscious..i kept on looking at my watch to see if i can make it to ust..fortunately..abot!
there..inside fx.. hesitant pa ko mag abot ng bayad..mukang ewan e..i was thinking if i was going to pay or not..if i will say "bayad ho..or pa abot po ng bayad or UST lang po" gah..wat da..naisip ko pa uN?!
then..right timing! ang linyang "bayad ho" ang nanalo! yes! then there..

ito pa..
lapit na sa ust..i was thinking..pano ko papara? "para ho, sa ust lng ho.." jackpot!! may nagpara na para skin..tiga ust din ata..anyway..nakakababa ako! hehehe..nice one!!

on time pa ko!! hehehe.. super daming taoo..when i got there, watdahell! ang inet! tas daming tao..kse sympre lunch..gahd!

there i was..walking, probably, students there were looking at me, thinking that i am a freshman..oh yes i am.. no uniform still..so ok pa..pag may uniform na..gahd..lupet..freshie ang dating..
anyway..there..walking...fortunately!!!! i saw clarisse!! thank GOD! i sat with her muna..usap2..then..hanggang sa dumami na ang holy people..ang ingay!! hehehe..but duh..miss ko na sila..ok lng!

then i saw my blockmate!! j-an!! yes!! it was a relief!!! gahd..just imagine, looking for someone who is familiar to you..and kaklase mo pa..ayus dba! hehe..
then..went to our classroom..
all of us were there already.. no one spoke a word. sympre..
then..first class..psychology..la parin.sarili sarili muna..bahala kau kumbaga..
then...english..ayun..it was the time for us to know our blockmates..ayun..pakilala..
i met... kaye, lance, harold,tauro, erika, tricia, jaybee, ron and many moreeeee....hehe..
after that math..tas phil. history then natsci..

looking forward to dismissal...yeah..after class..we (kaye, lance, harold and tauro) headed off to kfc...nagutom sa ilang oras na pagkaupo..ayun..fun..bonding with them..

ayun..so far..hmm..ok naman..
now..i am really aiming for uno..sana..para makalipat kagad..hehe..still thinking about that...

ayun...sana maging masaya ako dito..hehe

layo lng talaga..

hay.. :)

one more day

one more day then summer is done for me.
grbe..ngyun..kinakabahan ako..suddenly i felt it. tipong malapit na talaga.yikesssss...hay nako..i didn't have the chance na makacommute galing sa bahay papunta dun..so first time talaga ang mangyayari sa wed..
hay..gahh..

kinakabahan ako..

chatting with eia right now and arra (yey! new friend!!)

independence day

actually..i am still awake, it is 1:48 in the morning and as usual i cannot sleep..insomnia na nga ba to?! i hope not.. i have to be in my right sleeping time na kse i'm going to have my class na on wednesday..gah..e 1 pa naman ang start e..pero..watdaaaaaa..

anyway..nde ko nga naisip na mas mag-iiba nga pla ang buhay ni eia kase asa tate sya..haha..watda..goodluck na lng sayo!!! whahaha..

hayy..i was watching friends, last season..gah..nakakaiyak pa rin kht na napanood ko na..hehe..
ganda e..kht pa end na sya..chandler was still trying to joke kht na ang sad na ng itsura...yak..critic?! haha.pero ang fun talaga manuod nun..kht na your going to watch it for how many times..matatawa ka parn..galing noh? ganda talaga..hehe.. :P

i was with my cousin the other day (saturday)
ayun..katips nanaman..then went to ateneo..gah.ginawa akong stuffed toy..hehe..ayus lng. :P tagal nanaman taung nde magkikita nyan..hehe...

oh well..walang kinalaman ang title ko sa entry ko..i just want to have a title kse ang panget pag wala..hehe..it's really independence naman e..it's just that my entry is not about it..hehe.. :P

pahabol..katxt ko kse c gel..at natawa ako sa txt nya kse it's all about something na kabaduyan nga naman..hehe..

i want to be with my friends before school starts...sana..
ay eia..sana umuwi ka noh..hehe

changes

i've been thinking..
on june 14, everything's going to change..

first thing is my lifestyle..that i have to deal within the next months..
imagine..travelling from ust to commonwealth in 6:30 in the evening, alone, with a super nice uniform..matching the scarf that we have to wear everyday..and the vest..wow..nice..gah..imagine na lng that..
so..it's going to cause me a lot of money kapag magcocommute ako everyday..
grabe..iba na nga talaga

because back when i was in highschool (yihess..kala mo naman ang tagal na) sanay na akong nagbubus..and kung nde man mag bus..i can commute na lng since holy is not that far from my house..so solb! e eto..ust..watda! kung ano ano pang maze ang madadaanan ko..eto pa ang malupet..what if umuulan..so i have to bring an umbrella..bota?! hahahaha..wag naman sana..kse mabaha..so..okay..dadaanan ko ang isang malaking pool..full of dirt, kanal, animal na nde mo alam kung san galing..nice..one great adventure ito..

well..i think i really have to stick it in my mind that college is really going to be different..literal na iba..i have to deal with it..

hay.. anyway... iniisip ko if i am going to continue my college in ust..if i could just make my grades high..high enough to shift to up..cguro up na ko..hay..ano kaya? oh well..meron pa naman akong time to think about that e..

oh well...bahala na..hehe..just a thought..

endless thoughts

endless thoughts keep entering my mind.
everytime i'm going to katipunan or even passing there, i am always thinking what the hell happened to me and why did i not pass my ateneo exam?
o dba..hanggang ngyun naiisip ko pa un
siguro..mashado kong naisip na dun talaga ako. was i really aiming for the name?! wag naman sana..hehe..ang panget ng dating pag ganun e..

mood as of now..
hmm..
i want to go out
i am not that ready for school..bkt..takoT?! yeah yeah..college is really different..
i want to meet more people...new friends..yak..may iba atang ibig sbhin to..hehe
i am consistenly inconsistent
i want to be with my friends before school starts



ewan

anyway

went to flaming wings today..ate there
at..kakulay ko ang pader nila..red..yeah yeah..madugo ang dating

gah..yun lng

thinking aloud

expecting something is difficult.
tipong you already set your mind about something that you thought is going to happen then all
of a sudden..nag-iba.

la lang..just thinking aloud..

i am chatting with eia right now..and i definitely say that we are certified stalkers..yeah..talk about it..
we search for pictures..for multiply..laugh at their comments..kahibangan na ito..hehe
anyway..
haha..we (eia and i) are trying something different today..hehe..tignan ntin kung maglast ang pagpapanggap na ito..hehe

the first and (i think) the last concert

i was watching the tv awhile ago..actually(cge..magpakatotoo na) bituin walang ningning iyon..ok.hehe.then i remembered back when i was in 2nd yr. pumunta kmeng concert..nde lng sya concert ng kung cnong tao ah..
the whole family went because my sister bought the tickets for us..surprise amp! hahahaha! naalala ko pa..sobrang excited ako nun kse...

--makakapunta na rin akong araneta
--makakanood ng concert (going to tell later kung cno ang pinuntahan namin)
--the whole family was there
--the ticket was sponsored by my sister
--it was a friday..so ayus ang labas labas
bsta yun

pero..we were superrr far..tipong you will be needing telescope para makita sila..but it was ok..their voices sure made my night memorable..(watda!)

ayun..it was a friday nga..and i was just waiting for my father to pick me up at school..ayun..iniwan na ko ng bus cuz i told them na nde ako sasabay..ayun

after minutes of waiting...i saw fatima..o dba..
so napilitan akong sabihin sknya kung san ako pupunta
i never told my friends na pupunta ako sa concert na to..pero sympre dati lng yun..hehe

naiwan ng bus si fat kse may meeting sya..ayun..so she asked me if she could get a ride since i was going to be fetched..ayun..it ended up na inihatid nmin sya..

after that..we went back home to dress up..ayun..then.."goodddddeeevveeenninggg ARANETA!!" ahhaa..yak..

ayun..okay..so..it was my first time to be in an actual concert..as in super daming tao..
and i think it will also be my last since nde ko alam kung bkt kme napunta dun..

so..cge..hulaan na lng kung anong concert un..hehe..

haha..pero in fairness..masaya yun! hehehe!!

special mention...EIA! whahaha! hulaan mo kung ano tong pinagsasasabi ko..hehehe

what a day

slept at 3:00 am..then woke up at 6:00..wow..ilang oras lng ang tulog..yan..laki ng eyebags..

met up with philippe at mcdo..then went to ateneo..sa sibol..had mass there..after that..nasa sibol lng ako..wala ginagawa..daming new friends (gab, luigi,mik,tricks,dino,josef..wahh ang dami nila..nde ko na maalala..hehe) .. puro sibol..one of the boys?! wat da..ako lng talaga ang nagiisang babae..watdapak... tas tinour pa ko ng pinsan ko sa loob ng sibol...ayun..

watched them playing golf..whaaha..patok..
after watching them..met up with fatima...tas balik sibol ulet..stayed at the hs caf kse mainet..ayun..asa fan lng kme..inet grbe

then..ate at chicken inasal..sponsor dw ako ni fatima ngyun..so ayun..ako taya!
hehe..then..went to mcdo..superrrr boringgggggggggggggg

after the mcdo..went to cca..i did something there..ehehe..

then..mcdo ulet..we planned na lakarin ung stretch ng katipunan..but then..umabot lng kme sa may write place...balik na kme..tapos..punta naman fruit magic..
then..ateneo na..paulan na e..

aun..after walking fatima back to ateneo..just stayed there for a few minutes..then..trike na..cca..

tsk

hay..
went out today..i was wd my sister..jeep ulet! natutuwa na ko mag jeep ah.kso..inet lng nga..but it was ok.sanayan na lng ito..

today..d naman talaga ako aalis e..e bglang nalaman ko na lng na aalis sila..ayun..umalis na rin ako.
i was at katipunan..wla rin magawa..first i went to my mom...then went to national..
tagal ko sa national..all of the people there were buying school supplies..i don't know if i should be excited about college or anything..but gah..iba na to..it's not going to be the usual day..
ayun..all the time i was in national, people were telling each other kung ano pang kulang..kung anong kailangang notebook..hay..so what i did was..naki ganun na rin..
i was looking for a perfect notebook for my first day..gah..ang mahal!
kaya..i just bought a magazine..since i have nothing to do..edi magbasa na lng..

after national...went to mcdo..nkita ko pinsan ko..ayun..stayed there for a while..met a new friend, dave..hello! ayun..then went to cca..-->then home

that's it..bukas ulet..
wow..daily na ito ah..ehehe..